things i’m realizing

1. chocolate tastes better when it’s homemade. it tastes even better when it’s cut into pieces and put into gluten-free/dairy-free pumpkin coconut muffins. i regret not taking a picture of the ones i ate at my sister’s house sunday.

2. i love dill pickle snacks.

3. i need to stop eating so many almonds. they are giving me stomach aches. i’m taking kelly’s suggestion and soaking raw almonds instead of just buying the already roasted and salted ones.

4. in thinking about that i could add back into my diet, i realized i had not eaten a banana for 10 weeks. that’s crazy.

5. my acupuncturist has encouraged me to try two things: goats milk yogurt and a few gluten-free grains. i started with millet tonight. it wasn’t very exciting, but i only added salt and pepper, so i guess that would explain it.

6. having an anxiety attack in the middle of a grocery store is not the greatest location to have a melt-down. it snuck up on me and the next thing i knew, i was choking back tears near the prepared foods. i think it might be time figure out what to do when those moments happen.

7. writing about 2010 has proven more difficult than i expected. i want to post what i’ve written, but i’m not sure i’m ready to share it. lots of processing going on there. it’s a bit graphic.

8. our farm share arrives again tomorrow and i barely ate a third of last weeks. i can’t keep up.




match made in heaven

restore diet: 10 weeks and counting. pretty excited i made it this far without loosing my mind. i’m finding that avoiding grains is getting very easy; however, avoiding sugar–not so much. i haven’t actually had any refined sugar. i’ve had some honey in my espresso here and there. not much, but enough. all together, i feel A-mazing. my only stomach aches have been from eating too many roasted almonds. as long as i plan ahead and eat at home, or at the 2-3 places i feel safe eating, i’m good to go.

adding in tomatoes and eggplant was the highlight of last week. i don’t know what i’m going to add this week…i’ve been eating sweet potatoes here and there, but not much. i’m definitely not adding grains or sugar. suggestions? maybe i just stick with things as they are for now and add in october…

yesterday, i located a match made in heaven: cilantro green olive salpica salsa. holy. moly. cilantro + tomatillos + green olives = are you kidding me? why didn’t i think of this before? i bought it yesterday and i’m almost done with the jar. today’s brunch: eggs, broccoli, salsa. wow, i’ve missed tomatillos.

i’m going to my sister’s tomorrow for a few days and she’s promised to make mango bread and homemade chocolate chips. can’t wait.



sooooo i went against my doctor’s order on sunday. i honestly wasn’t really even thinking about it at the time because i was so excited to eat something different. SO excited. yes, this is the reality of my life with my digestive system. i get excited to eat veggies.

the restore diet requires that you add something new in every 2-3 days. that way, if something changes, you know where it’s coming from. well, i did that: with eggs and almond milk and nuts. it took me a week and a half, but i added all three, spacing them apart so i could read my body: did i have a stomach ache? what felt different? was the toilet my new bff after 9 weeks? turns out when i eat a lot of nuts i get a killer stomach ache. this is not necessarily news, as it’s true for most people with “normal” digestive tracks. but given my hesitancy with meat and inability to eat beans, nuts are a big protein source for me. so, some times i over-do it when i’m not paying attention.

sunday, i was so excited to eat out, i could hardly contain it. i went to the owl house with my friend michael for brunch: it was our break from 6 hours of writing our comprehensive exams and other PhD work. we were treating ourselves. i was giddy about having a bloody mary. and then we got there at 10 a.m. and we realized NY doesn’t let you drink before noon. seriously: dumbest law EVER because who doesn’t want to consume vodka and tomato juice at 10a.m. on a  sunday morning? i thought so. so, instead of consuming tomatoes, i had one piece of toast. (this is after my food got sent back twice: once i had to change my order b/c the hash browns were not gluten free. then they sent my gluten-free toast up covered with butter. it was then i realized that i wasn’t paying enough attention to ordering off a gluten-free menu and needed to pay attention. glad i caught it before taking a bite. the waiter literally turned back and grabbed my plate of food out from under me seconds before i brought my fork to my mouth just because he didn’t want to risk it. good waiter.)

so, i ate my gluten-free toast. and now i’m realizing that it probably had soy butter on it. and i haven’t had soy in 9 weeks. or grains. and then later that day i got really into cooking with our farm share and made cabbage rolls and roasted eggplant tomato soup. and ate them for 2 days.

so, that’s 48 hours of 4 new things: soy, grain, eggplant, tomatoes.

and yesterday morning i woke up and realized that adding 4 things back in all at once after 9 weeks of eating only plants (night shade veggies excluded ) and animals (cringe) was a really really really dumb idea. that’s why my doctor told me not to rush.

lesson learned.



C is a beet addict. by addict i mean for two winters in a  row, the man literally makes himself a pot of beets for dinner about 4 times a week. no joke. some times i’d come home from class at night and he would be sitting there with a huge bowl of cooked beets, covered in salt and pepper.

the fall edition of sweet paul magazine is out and there’s some amazing recipes in there, including an entire section on cooking with beets. lucky us, we have a bunch of beets from last week’s farm share. lucky c, i’m making him beet soup tomorrow. stay tuned for the taste test.

(image: sweet paul)

fall share recipes

we keep getting these beautiful purple cabbages in our farm share.
last night, i made these stuffed cabbage rolls (minus the rice). we loved this recipe. it was my first dive into tomatoes and i ate a lot of it. c topped his with fresh parm to add a sharp cheesy-kick.

i’m trying to be strategic about our share each week because it’s very hard for two people to keep up with that many fruits and veggies, even when i’m eating a diet of veggies, fruits, and meat. i always end up wasting something by not getting to it fast enough. i had about 8 large tomatoes and a massive eggplant we hadn’t touched yet, so i made this roasted eggplant soup for this week’s lunches. (skipped all the dairy and it still tastes amazing!)

i can’t seem to get off smitten kitchen’s recipes. she’s got a knack for making everything still taste amazing even if you don’t add in any of the grains or dairy.

might make this red pepper soup to freeze for late fall when i’m overwhelmed with school. i’m definitely making this tasty squash recipe this week, too!

random bits

*for the first time in 3 years, i started drinking coffee again. even i’m shocked by this. i’m on day 10 of an almond milk latte binge right now and i really need to let it go. i think the restore diet is making me craaaaave things i can’t have and coffee seems to be what i’m gravitating to. thankfully, it’s not making me sick. it is, however, making me loopy. one shot of espresso and i’m pretty much wired for 6-8 hours. i’m getting work done at a ridiculous pace, even over the weekends.

*our farm share was so big last week i could hardly carry it. i’m a little worried i won’t have enough room in the fridge for this week’s share, which we get tomorrow. if you get a text from me inviting you to share in the bounty, please take me up on it.

*my doctor sent me a “stern” email monday telling me that 1. i wasn’t eating enough and 2. i wasn’t eating enough veggies. guilty on both accounts. i’m trying to up my intake of all things green. broccoli has been my veggie of choice lately. i’m currently roasting brussels sprouts with bacon and apples.

*if you’re looking for a way to get through the cabbage and apples in your farm share, make this recipe. it’s a-mazing.

*my sister found this blog and i can’t wait to explore it.

*my sister and i are cookin’ up a fall gluten, dairy, soy-free party plan for october. details comin’ soon.


let’s get peachy

our fruit share is out of control. i can’t eat enough of it before it starts to go bad. i’ve taken to baking peaches, plums and nectarines with nutmeg. unfortunately, i can’t eat them with coconut ice-cream or make them into a yummy sugary crisp, so instead i’m adding them to anything and everything. tonight, i added them to pork chops, which was surprisingly good. sweet + salty = tasty.

how do: core fruit, sprinkle with nutmeg and cinnamon, etc. bake at 375 for about 30 mins. yummy.





i can not tell a lie

i made one of my favorite cookies last night: toasted almond chocolate chip from  the spunky coconut cookbook (i have the first edition.). i can not tell a lie: i taste-tested them. some one had to. i made them for my gluten-free friend and i couldn’t just hand over cookies not knowing if they were really really good. (they are.)

i’ve made this recipe so much since last december when i went gluten-free that the cookbook actually opens to the page the recipe is on now (p. 150). i love them the most because they taste more like little scones than cookies to me. i’m sure it has to do with how i always change the recipe a little, but i like them less sweet.

here’s how i make them different:
*instead of using vanilla stevia, i just use vanilla (flavoring)
*some times i use agave instead of honey
*i don’t make my own almond milk, so i just use store-bought
*i always add more chocolate chips than required
*i always toast almonds and add them to give it a nutty crunch

kelly, of the spunky coconut, has a similar chocolate chip recipe on her blog i want to try out–adds in applesauce and coconut. mmmm.

*another fun fact: my sister told me that the pumpkin mousse recipe i’m using is very similar to the one kelly has in her second cookbook. (which i also own.) going to need to give that one a go and see how it’s different.


i’m really really good at complaining. i could be a professional whiner. some times i think my nick name should be miss-whines-a-lot. but i told myself 8 weeks ago that when i started this restore diet that i would not spend my time whining and complaining about everything i couldn’t eat, no matter how long i had to be on it.

i’m dangerously close to making this blog post full of complaints and whiney annoying statements. i’m on the verge of two months with absolutely no grains, no potatoes, no peppers, and darn-it, no tomatoes and it’s heirloom tomato-heaven in western ny right now. see, i want to complain about not eating rice and beans, or gluten-free breads and yummy potato chips, but really, all i want is to eat some tomatoes and eggplant. a potato here and there. veggies people. i’m complaining about not being able to eat veggies. there is something dreadfully wrong here. there is also something really odd to be giddy about being able to eat eggs and almond milk. it makes me feel like either my world is really small or i need some new hobbies.

one of the most frustrating parts is that i’m sick of eating the same things over and over. i keep trying to find new recipes, but everything i want to cook includes a veggie i can’t eat yet. last night i made a veggie frittata: eggs, coconut milk, asparagus, fennel, onion, garlic, herb. it’s yummy. but it’s no heirloom tomato. and all i’ve gotten out of it is constant remarks from C that my garlic breath could kill someone.

my sister just made up her own recipe and it looks killer: coconut mango bread. it’s gluten, casein, soy and cane sugar free and it looks amazing.  AND there’s no grains in it, so technically, i could eat it if decided having honey was on the restore diet list. (which it isn’t.) if you try making it, let us know. my sister is curious how it will come out for other people.

i think it looks yummy:





my sister-in-law showed up to our family cookout the other day with a gift for C that she expected would blow his mind. it did.

yea, that’s right: an entire container of lucky charms marshmallows, without the cereal. although she loves C, she did not lovingly pick our all the marshmallows from a box of Lucky Charms for him. she found it at Sauder’s, a Mennonite-run store where apparently you can buy large containers of bulk food, including Lucky Charms marshmallows, from young Mennonites dressed in traditional Mennonite clothing. hilarious.